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  • Now and then I think of when we were together like when you said you felt so happy you could die told myself that you were right for me but felt so lonely in your company but that was love and it's an ache I still remember
    You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness like resignation to the end, always the end so when we found that we could not make sense well you said that we would still be friends but I'll admit that I was glad it was over
    But you didn't have to cut me off make out like it never happened and that we were nothing and I don't even need your love but you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough no you didn't have to stoop so low have your friends collect your records and then change your number Iguess that I don't need that though now you're just somebody that I used to know
    Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over but had me believing it was always something that I'd done but I don't wanna live that way reading into every word you say you said that you could let it go and I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know
    But you didn't have to cut me off make out like it never happened and that we were nothing and I don't even need your love but you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough no you didn't have to stoop so low have your friends collect your records and then change your number I guess that I don't need that though now you're just somebody that I used to know

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    3 January 2020 @ 8:28 pm
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    1 January 2020 @ 8:13 pm
    Looking For Lines [
    Disclaimer: This is just a simple post suggesting ideas, my characters, and outlines as far as rules go for me when writing. If this doesn't look like the thing for you then no problem, if it does then hit me up. I would be more than glad to discuss ideas, thoughts, and possible new ventures if you have something in mind as well.

    Mun Name: Shiver.
    Main LJ: literal
    Timezone: MST.
    Years Playing: 12 years, with some sabbaticals in between.
    Looking For: PSLs Only. I'm not looking for a GPSL or comm.
    Requirements: Plot > Smut. Threading only. M/F or F/F.
    Age Restriction: 18+

    What do I like to write?: Never any one liners. I usually pen around 3-5 paragraphs, minimally. I prefer to world build and develop characters through discussion. I love OOC banter about characters and organic creation. I can write either male or female characters, depending on the genre. I'm a long term kind of player, so if you just plan on a one shot then I'm not the person for you. I like depth, development, and original ideas.

    What are some of my ideas and writing interests?:
    (( Underlined subjects are especially sought, but looking for all listed! ))

    Fluff! -- (teen angst, sappy love stories, RomCom)
    Mass Effect! -- (1-3, OCs or canons)
    Star Wars! -- (KotOR or Clone Wars)
    Legend of Zelda! -- (any of the games)
    Skyrim! -- (OCs or canons)
    Dragon Age! -- (Pr-Origins Books, Origins, & 2, OCs or canons)
    Country Music! -- (90's setting)
    Howl's Moving Castle! -- (Books or Movie)
    Diablo! -- (1-3, OCs or canons)
    Star Trek! -- (TV Series, OCs or canons)
    Battlefield 4! -- (OCs or canons)
    Professional Sports! -- (wrestling or hockey)
    Harry Potter! --(OCs or canons)
    Monster High! -- (any of the movies)
    Once Upon a Time! -- (through season 3)
    Historical! -- (Egyptian, Medieval, Roman, or WWII)
    Sooki Stackhouse! -- (Books, not the TV show)
    Phantom of the Opera! -- (Books or Movies)
    Patrica Briggs! -- (Mercy Thompson or Alpha and Omega series)
    Tim Burton! -- (Anything! My love is endless)
    PayDay 2! -- (OCs or canons)
    Firefly! -- (OCs or canons)
    Disney Movies! -- (Anything! My love is endless)
    Outlander! -- (Books only)
    Anime! -- (Ouran, Fruits Basket, DBZ, Death Note)
    Dr Horrible! -- (OCs or canons)

    Final Words?: If any of those general ideas spark your interest then let me know and I'd be glad to go over plots with you. I can be swayed on a lot of things so feel free to hit me up with your ideas too and maybe we can work something out!

    29 March 2016 @ 3:53 pm
    [info]desiderium [
    The Illusive Man was clear: Horizon was the next target. How he got his information or why he believe it to be true Commander Sarah Shepard couldn't question. Cerberus had saved her life through means that she still was unable to fathom. They had pieced her back together from some discarded remains and made her stronger than ever. That type of life debt wasn't going to be overlooked by her, but it also didn't mean she trusted them.

    In the Alliance's eyes Cerberus were the bad guys. They lived outside the law and took justice into their own hands. Sarah knew what that felt like after being a spectre but she still didn't agree with their methods. There was a fine line you had to walk when your job entailed such a thing and it seemed far too easy to stray. So she asked questions, she pushed their limits, and she enforced her own moral code with everything she did and hoped that it would be good enough.

    She took that same attitude when they landed on Horizon, taking with her Miranda Lawson and Garrus Vakarian. Sarah always preferred to have a Cerberus agent with her at all times. Miranda was capable in the field and her biotic training seemed unparalleled. Whatever insight she could provide about their mission and about the Illusive Man was taken into consideration. However she kept Garrus closer, trusting him to have her back at all times and to give her frank advice.

    The Turian was her new right hand man, replacing a hole left by Kaidan Alenko. Garrus had a rough patch while Shepard was dead and as both coped with losses and change they worked together as a unit. His work on the ship was appreciated and when he wasn't too busy calibrating they had some time to catch up. It seemed like neither of them had much use for sleep and the companionship was welcomed.

    As they set out on the planet they already knew their mission. They needed to save the colony by any means necessary and, hopefully, be able to utilize Mordin's countermeasure against the seeker swarm. What they didn't expect was that they were already too late. The Collectors had already got a jump start on the settlement and every new building they came upon was deserted, if not swarming with enemies.

    With what courage and determination they could muster the trio pushed on, destroying their enemies until they came upon a large gathering area. With the help of the rebuilt Normandy and some strategy they were able to hold off the oncoming swarms until they could defend with the laser placements. They were able to drive off the ship and stop the attack but were too late to save everyone. Over a third of the population had already been taken onto the ship before they got there.

    If it wasn't bad enough to live with that guilt she had a not so subtle reminder by a man they had encountered earlier. "You have to do something!" He kept yelling and despite trying to make herself feel better she knew that it hurt.

    "I didn't want it to end this way. I did what I could," she countered almost half halfheartedly. Maybe she could have done more if they were here earlier.

    "More than most, Shepard." Garrus chimed in for some comfort.

    "Shepard, wait, I know that name. Sure, I remember you. You're some type of big Alliance hero." The other man said with narrowed eyes, obviously not impressed.

    Though before she could react someone else made an appearance, someone she never thought she would see again. Kaidan. Her heart constricted as he made his way into the clearing and she tried to slow her breathing. She had found out he was alive when they started rebuilding the crew of the Normandy. However she never could bring herself to contact him. Each time she thought she would reach out the "what if" moments brought her back to reality. He had moved on. She had died. They were now on opposite sides of the playing field and she was sure that he wouldn't be okay with it.

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